Love Letter 01: Dear Theatre

UBD Performing Arts Club | Red Umbrella, 2017, Rehearsals
UBD Performing Arts Club | Red Umbrella, 2017
Dear Theatre,

I am terribly nervous and there is a ruckus in my chest but I think that it is time I tell you something.

I am writing this to you after the wonderful night we spent together in that hall with air-conditioning turned up a notch too high and lights that never seem to be wired properly, where you had come up to me with your billowy arms and wrapped me tight in your embrace. I am writing this to you after a year of knowing you, and oh, how sweet it has been to know you.

I do not know when I fell in love with you, but I am.

Monthly Merits: February 2017

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Monthly Merits is a monthly series where I recount and award the month's worthiest moments in merits. Read last month's merits here.

There never was any good in comparing something to another should it leave a person perplexed in the wrath of insecurity and despair. I cannot help as I type this, however, to put together the pieces of a year old month I have quickly torn apart and place it beside the February I have just had. The difference is striking; misery has become a toxic lover sent out on her knees.

I thank my lucky stars for a February filled with work, more work and even more work. Better a month of breathless smiles than one of idle cries. Here are this month's merits.

Clouds and Sweet Treats

Brunei Style Blogger May Cho of The Mayden | Bomber Jacket, Fishnets, ankle boots, glasses, fashion blogger, style blogger, lifestyle blogger, storyteller
Brunei Style Blogger May Cho of The Mayden | Bomber Jacket, Fishnets, ankle boots, glasses, fashion blogger, style blogger, lifestyle blogger, storyteller
Clouds pooled above the capital on a particular Thursday and I decided it was a wonderful day to cleanse the stress that has clung to my skin over the past few weeks.

My solution was to feast on sweet treats and I asked my mother to be my date for the day, quickly clarifying that I would be treating her and that all she had to do was tolerate my blogging antics -- which is synonymous to watching me prance about for a half hour taking photos of the food from various angles before finally devouring it -- and drive me out of the house that has my spine chained to the ground.

She agreed, and we were set for a cloudy ice-cream date.

Monthly Merits: January 2017

Brunei Blogger May Cho of The Mayden | Chinese New Year
Monthly Merits is a monthly series where I recount and award the month's worthiest moments in merits. Read last month's merits here.

I find myself among a pile of snot-sodden tissue paper at the end of January, body ridden with white blood cells, lips chapped by dehydration but mind buzzing with the electricity of January. January was a myriad of things -- love, friends and courage -- but above all, January was a promise I made myself, and a month I decided to create for myself.

January, oh January, you've been lovely.

Rivers and Fishes

Brunei Blogger May Cho of The Mayden and Shi Min of discofissh | Kampung Ayer, Golden Hour
Brunei Blogger Shi Min of discofissh | Kampung Ayer, Golden Hour, The Mayden
The sun hung low in the sky as Min and I made our way across town to the capital. This was the reunion of two friends which saw the unfolding of a trip -- possibly their last -- to the water village on a Friday afternoon.

In true May and Min fashion, we took every chance we got to take silly snaps during rush hour traffic, ugly-dance to The Jackson Five and shout to Bobby McFerrin. At one point, we spent minutes recovering from fits of laughter as a neighboring driver gawked incredulously at our ferocious head bangs and violent gesticulations during a turning junction. Our dancing and singing didn't stop until the car was parked, the doors locked and our feet hit solid ground.


Monthly Merits: December

Brunei Blogger May Cho of The Mayden
Monthly Merits is a monthly series where I recount and award the month's worthiest moments in merits. Read last month's merits here.

December awed me when it wrapped itself up neatly into a box to stow in the cellar. It was a completion, a resolution, a reconciliation of troubled souls and it was easily one of my favourite months of the entire year. A few of its winning attributes: the holidays, friends, lots of reading and lots of writing.

To put it simply, December was wonderful.

Visual Anatomy: The Human Condition


Brunei Blogger May Cho of The Mayden | Projector Photography, Tumblr, Neon Sign
Visual Anatomy is a bird's eye view of my inner workings, a pixelated spilling of my guts and thoughts spread out into a trilogy. Find out more here.

I sometimes think that if my heart is sliced open, instead of veins and arteries, there'd be words instead. A blood-pumping organ the core of one's anatomy, catalyst for downfalls and reason for joy -- all this in one made out of words. How insufferably poetic.

"How was your day?"

A treacherous night was upon the world this evening and I was a capsule of energy crouched in a corner witnessing it. Book shelf draped in sentimentality mounted above my head, a phone call in my ear.

I had a nightmare where you were being tortured and I couldn't do anything and I woke up crying. I went back to sleep two hours later after convincing myself that you were perfectly fine. I woke up late with a bloated face and bloated stomach and I didn't have breakfast. I read a book about the bane of humanity and the devastation of feelings and it moved me to tears so I re-read it and re-read it and re-read it and re-read it. And then I fed the cat and cuddled the cat and watched a movie about freedom. And then I tried to workout but got too lazy and ended up napping on the floor instead. I woke up and had dinner and took a bath and did random stuff and now I'm here. It was an odd day, a lazy day, but mostly odd. I miss you.

"It was alright." Understated -- the only way I know how.

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